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Feels Like The First Time

ImageCan you think back on those moments in your life when you feel like the course of your path is changing, but for the better? I just had to start writing this post because the universe seems to be turning its cosmic axis where I’m finally understanding myself and what I want from life. It might be a fleeting moment and that leaves me anxious so I feel I must grab onto it like a balloon and try not to let it float away. The play I have been rambling about for the last month “Midsummer Nights Dream” has finally come to an end. We received so much love, admiration, and praise for this show that it blew my mind. Every time I had a friend or family member in the audience I was so afraid they weren’t going to like the performance and when I walked out the stage door to see their reaction I would take a deep breathe. To my surprise I was always welcomed with huge smiles, hugs, and kindness. There is no better feeling for an actor to know you affected someone’s soul in a small way. ImageOne Saturday evening during intermission we all participated in something behind the scenes on Broadway. Its a fun way on Twitter to peek into some of Theater’s biggest names as well as smaller venues to see what the actors are up to before they go on stage for the Second Act of the show. Its hash-tag is #SIP which stands for Saturday Intermission Picture. I was stoked to see we made such headlines as Broadway World.com and Broadway Spotted.com. We were blessed with a wonderful cast, director and composer Ian McDonald; founding member of the band Foreigner. Being a fan of classic rock this was such a treat for me. He was such a sweet man but didn’t quite like my fondness for Adam Ant’s music as we played the juke box at the cast party. Image

As fast as the show came is as fast as it blew by. Its a bitter-sweet moment to end a show. The mere fact that that specific production will never be seen by the eyes of anyone again is a bit daunting. You think back of all the relationships that are made during rehearsals and the late nights of struggling through practicing lines and choreography and when you think the day was done, we all had to gather in the audience chairs and wait for our notes on how to be better. I remind myself of those moments and how the struggle of putting a show together makes you stronger as a cast. That’s where the “sweet” comes in. Ending a show is a like a badge of honor. You have made it through the dark forest and prevailed. The next adventure awaits you. Which brings me to the other reason I jumped onto my keyboard just now. The day after Midsummer Nights Dream ended, I was contacted to audition for a SYFY kinda film. I was a bit hesitant due to the subject matter. As I read the script my mouth dropped even more with every page. It mentions drugs, goddesses, worshipping animal-people, and murder. What in the world was I about to get myself into??!!! I just got out of a fun loving comedy play and now I have to find my inner “crazy” to get the guts and audition. I put on my big girl brave pants and traveled to Brooklyn to deliver my monologue. I was so relieved to know the director and crew were very accommodating and exceptionally interesting. So, that’s that good part, it was a fun experience. Bad part…..the waiting to hear if I actually got the role. I have spent the majority of my day checking my email more then necessary. In last efforts to save myself from Iphone overdoes, I hid it in the bottom of my laundry basket and decided to write out my screaming meemies. Oh no..I can check my mail on my macbook. I-Temptress.